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Friday, July 23, 2010 // 10:07 PM

Yeah right.

I'm some idiot to you.

You're not some non-idiot to me either.

You don't exactly worship me, so do I.

Well, I don't just NOT worship you, but think you're the worst thing on earth.

You scold me infront of the whole class, in my face.

I'm not so courteous to be that nice to you either.

You treat me like dirt, I can just say I can treat you like a stinkin pile of rubbish too.

Try me. If you dare.

Today, was one of the worst days of my life?
Yeah.
How'd you describe that feeling?
Being the inside joke of being the idiot.
Knows how it feels like?
You should. Coz you're one.

"Ruofei is like very slow mo-
Sixin also. "

"I know that Sixin don't like sports.
I also know that Ruofei don't like sports."

Well, frankly speaking,

IN UR FACE.
Yeah right, you know why I even bothered to run the bloody 2.4km that scorching hot morning at the track one day last year during ur freaking lesson? Reason's simple : I don't mind. Minus the part of "scorching hot morning". Add one more : After running, dropped dead on the floor, eyes rolled backwards and felt dizzy. Very dizzy. Wanted to throw up. Why? Coz of the hot day? Slight heatstroke? Which that day you made us run, even when the other teachers saw the weather and decided not to? FINE.

Do you have any idea? Of what I actually WANTED to choose for my cca?
Any idea?
Nope, you don't. Not even the slightest.
I wanted to get into badminton you idiot.
I got into CO instead coz i couldnt have chosen another 1st choice coz alr promised Mr Lum & Mr Wong during the interview. CO is a great cca, though. Why am i even saying this, like by any of the slightest chance you'd know how to appreciate chinese music? FINE.

Why I'd bother to train that one fine afternoon at the place near my house with Yixian and Xiwen if I don't like sports?
Trained for netball, brought them all the way to my house which is actually so much further that yours tyvm, and this jus becoz i don't like sports?

Who on earth told you I don't like sports?

And why on earth did you even say that I don't like sports?

Yeah, know I'm not sporty, but you don't know enough.

You think only you know what's sports?

Well, think again, others know too.

Others also make it a point to enjoy sports.

I play badminton at home, not in ur sight obviously. Obviously I enjoy it right, all else, like, why the hell bother?

I seriously don't know what's wrong with you.

Yes, being a teacher to a bunch of teenagers might be hard

but can you say that you actually know us at all?

Jeline?
Jiamin?
Yixin?
Ruofei?
Wang Qing?

How many times have you scolded them for some measly thing that they actually might not have done?
Have you tried to understand them?
People have feelings you know?

Wonder why so many people are so mad at you?
Think again. You scolded people for such minute things.
Collected handphones. (which reminds me, I'm never going to let you collect it from me, NOT EVER.)
Made them run.
Made them stand in the hot sun for hours.
Made them miss classes and get them into trouble.
Made them miss their chance of having a very enjoyable time at school.

Yes, you think you're right. Yes, you bought us drinks. You bought us ice cream.
But
You didn't give us enough encouragement. You sat there in one chair jus watching us finish the structure, which we spent like how many precious afternoons on it when we could have used it to revise homework? I could've revised and not flunk the science prac paper you know.
You were there screaming at ppl to clean up the mess in class. Always eyeing on the same ppl- I assume as those which you don't really like.

You don't even care about how you express yourself. You're talking to the whole class. Your way of talking seriously has made ppl want to punch holes into walls. You make ppl cry jus by screaming.

You turn us into monsters. We live past schoollife with the scoldings the endless nightmares of forgetting to bring down books and running the track. and getting hps confiscated.

Please, can you just think about what you've done and just change, no matter 180 degrees or 100 degrees. or jus the slightest bit.

Please.

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